So, I'm happy. I really am. I love my friends, I love my town and I love life. A lot of things could be better, but it's okey, for now.
All I need now is to get a letter that tells me if I'm going into the army next year or not. I will be so extremely dissapointed if I don't get excepted, so I better get a positive answer!

Right now I need a long walk, so that's what I'm gonna do; go outside and walk till I don't need it anymore. I wanna go to the church to see my dad's grave, I haven't done that in a really long time. I need to talk to him, no matter how creepy it may sound.
There's just so much that I wish I could ask him, and there are so many parts of his life that I know absolutely nothing about.

I never thought I would be the kid who lost her dad. I've never felt like one of those. At the same time it feels so natural just to live with my mom and my sister. I'm used to it now, and sometimes it scares me how easy it is; Like I don't even remember how it was having him here.

I sure miss him though, and he helps me getting through, and smile,  every day. He's my strength, and I love him to death.